It seems like forever and a day since I've been able to catch yall up.........so today I'm going to attempt to do just that. Let's see where do we start??? I know, whatever comes to my mind I'll type.

My stay at St. Josephs was very pleasant. Everyone that took care of me from taking my temp, giving me meds, changing my bed, and even the yuck stuff....was wonderful. I felt so good after surgery and thought "ok, I can do this." I didnt have a clue what I was in for. But was determined to have a postive attitude and fight to get back to being me, but a better me. This second chance God is so precious for giving me has me fired up. The outpour of LOVE to me and my family.....there are no words to say what my heart feels so when I get well I'll have tons more sympathy and be much more generous. Cards, prayers, food, money, flowers and gifts....Wow! Support from any and everybody comes to see me everyday. For several days I talked out of my head and ate, drank immaginary foods....Then I got thrush. That was no fun at all. They gave me miracle mouthwash and said, " just swish it in your teeth and swallow it." It felt like I was swallowing toothpaste...I cringe still at the thoughts. After 6 days I got to come home. I sleep in the recliner most nights. Stan fixes me a tray of meds and a walkie talkie to call him when I've got to go to the bathroom. I call him my midnight angel. With my incision, I can't get up or down by myself so he has to do it. Several nights ...us both in our underwear have walked the yards hoping it would help my legs not feel numb. I'm hanging in there, the process of healing is taking patience I don't have. I want to be back so bad and so right now. Just to feel normal will be wonderful. One day I woke up and felt great, that lasted for 2 hours. I got a horendous infection where my drain was and it knocked the life out of me for about a week. Anyway, I got my port for the chemo put in yesterday. It went very well. So in about 3 weeks I'll probably start my treatments. I've been so brave but I'm apprehensive about the chemo. I've always hated to hear that word and I feel like I'm letting an enemy inside. So please friends pray that my mind is renewed and I receive it as a friend. I want to thank all of you for everything, without my friends, family, and faith.....I'd be forever lost. I love you all. Oh by the way for the past 3 days....I've felt great so I'm hoping I'm on the come back.